Thoughts at 2:02AM
"The greatest gift you can give someone is the space to be his or herself, without the threat of you leaving."
I wish people wouldn’t blow things out of proportions and try to get a stand point of where others are coming from. Sometimes certain decisions or based on the benefits of others. Yes we could have asked you, but if you haven’t noticed that whenever we hang out you don’t always want to participate in the same things that the majority wants to, I understand if you don’t want to, but sometimes we have to work together and agree on things. And to be honest I don’t see why I’m always the one who has to deal with the problems, if this was a true meaningful friendship with the others, then you’d also talk to everyone else and let them know how you feel too. I don’t like having to carry all the weight because I have to balance other things and I’m sure you do too, but imagine if you always had people come to you with their problems and you were expected to fix them all. I don’t mind having to do so, but I’d appreciate some help in trying to help you figure out your own problems. If you told the rest of the group how you felt that would be a lot better and things can be fixed. I know for a fact that it hurts the rest that you only tell me your problems and don’t tell them. There needs to be trust. I’m not the only one in this group. There needs to be an understanding that we don’t always have to invite people to certain things, I mean you do things with your other friends all the time and I don’t complain. I understand that it’s okay to spend time with others and yeah we haven’t all hung out like we used to. The fact of the matter is yes we have drifted a bit, you went your way and focused mostly on other things and I did the same and so did the others, but that doesn’t mean we still aren’t friends. Overall friendship takes an equal effort on both parts and if that effort isn’t given than I won’t bother.
Two days left before school starts and stress upon unwanted stress keeps piling up.
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